Our Miracle is Here

Our Miracle is Here
Welcome Little Angel Grayson James Walker

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

2 Week Heavenly birthday

I can't believe it's already been two weeks since we met our little boy.  Time has gone by rather quickly.  I can say that I've experienced all different types of emotions.  Anger, frustration, sadness, joy.  This journey continues as God uses Grayson's life to bring people to Himself.  I sit in my bed and look at the tangible things that I have of him.  They are precious but nothing compared to holding him in my arms.  It's been difficult trying to grasp the fact that he was with me for 9 months, was born and lived for 8 wonderful hours, then he was gone.  I feel guilty at times because it's almost like I never had him if that makes any sense.  I know that I got to carry him in my belly and feel the closeness of him being with me everyday, but in the blink of an eye, he was gone.  I have the peace of knowing that Jesus is holding him right now until I get to Heaven, but it's still difficult.  I don't want to lose the little memories as time goes by.  I pray daily that Jesus gives him kisses for me and that he lets Grayson know how much we love him and miss him.

7 comments:

  1. This is beautiful! I am so glad you brought your little boy into this world. What a sweet blessing!

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  2. Oh honey. Your little Grayson knows how much you love him. You were such a wonderful mother to him. You have been such a godly example during the pregnancy. You are fabulous. I am so sorry at the loss you are enduring. I will be praying for you and your family. God will give you peace. And just know, you will see him again! And what a reunion that will be!

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  3. A friend of mine just sent me the link to your blog. I lost my daughter last December to anencephaly www.thegiftofrachelslife.blogspot.com and my heart aches for you. I smiled when I read your nurse's name was Rachel :o) And I've cried reading about all your feelings and watching your video. I'm so sorry for your loss. Grayson is beautiful! I'm here if you need to talk - my email is available on my blog. love & hope to you.... ♥Stacy

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  4. my son asher was born on feb 15, 2012. we got to hold him for 2 1/2 hours before he passed, so I'm feeling the same feelings you're feeling right now. its been difficult on my husband & i. our son was born 12 weeks early after an emergency c-section. hoping God gives us comfort & peace for the hurt & pain we're both going through! <3

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  5. It's been almost two years since we met and said goodbye to our Noah. Even though we constantly talk about him, sometimes life gets so busy and full that he seems like a distant dream. Time feels like an enemy...it makes me sad. I pray that God will carry you through the upcoming days, weeks and months.
    With Heart-Strings to Heaven,
    jenn

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  6. he had a special mission in heaven. those feeling are normal i had them when i lost my son for 6 months after.. it was burst of tears for no reason (as others thought),and anger. my son anniverary is coming up on 5 yrs and i just can't believe it. he was my first and only son.

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  7. Thank you for setting such an amazing example of strength for us BLMs. My Cameron's birthday is this Friday and he would have been a year.

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