I miss you Grayson.  My heart is empty without you here.  Your brother and sister sure do keep me entertained but I can't help but think that they would be entertaining you too.  It's not fair but I guess that's how life goes.  I look around and everyone I know is either having a baby or just had one.  I'm sure you'd be smiling and starting to show a little personality.  It hurts to not be able to just pick you up and hold you.  I can't even touch you.   I just wish I could really understand this all.  You are still my little baby boy and I won't ever forget you.  You've opened my eyes to alot of things.  I don't think I'll ever be the same.  I know your daddy and I have said that several times.  He told me before you were born that I wouldn't be the same person.  I'm not quite the same, but its for the better I think.  You have impacted so many people's lives just because you lived.  I chose life for you, but it was never a doubt for me.  It was never an option for me son, because you are my son, no matter what length of time.  God gave you to me, Heather Elaine Walker.  I knew that I would love you unconditionally.  I miss you so much Grayson James.  I wish Ellie and Noah could have grown up knowing you.  They would have you spoiled rotten already.  Ellie would've taken you to her room and acted like mommy.  I'm sure she would have been a big helper.  She might have even dressed you up in her baby doll clothes.  Noah could have shown you his cars and sung you the night, night song.  We love you bubba.  It won't be too long before we see your beautiful face again.  This time on earth is short but it means something.  We're gonna do our part to make sure that others know about your life and that they choose the same for their children.  You just keep on working on that mansion with Jesus.  I love you.

Mommy